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[liltaireissocute]

if you ask me about the most toxic and fucked up ship possible I will show you this

[scarefox]

How to tell the leading therapist in my psychiatry day clinic that me denying some of their suggestions like - telling my father all my secrets I keep from him for safety and peace - or me getting panic attacks from anything job hunting related when I am in a burnout from my last job that gave me ss thoughts, that all that is NOT me just being stubborn not wanting to be brave and fight my fears to become better. (i literally had 8h 5 days a week exposure therapy within the group activities in the clinic and got a bit better with my social anxiety)

It is absolutelly contraproductive of her saying shit like me becoming depressed again now at the end out of fear when my clinic stay ends next week, is totally valid because I didn't even try to practice job interviews (when she herself approved that i do that with my solo therapist after the clinic and just want to focus on getting back out of burnout, get new motivation and energy) and she would be scared too in my shoes. Or that apparently I am anti work and anti job performance so much that this is what makes my body and brain stop working so i have an excuse to not do it..... when I literally am in burnout because I worked the past 3 years multiple jobs while trying to finish uni + the whole 5 uni years before that were 40h weeks of studying and projects and exams I pulled through with zero vacation breaks (except semester breaks but they were used again for work, studying or projects). just because i told her how much i hated to work for my last job for treating us employees like disposable work drones with no regard to anyones health. or my former boss who treated me more like her assistant and garbage cleaner on top of her graphics designer. This therapist now gives me the feeling that she thinks I just don't want to work at all.

I should have known that this clinic isn't it, when one of the other therapists openly dropped that she hates the term "work-life ballance" because nowadays a lot of people are just not trying hard enough anymore and then cry they are exhausted when others have it worse.

But I also feel like all we learn in this clinic on how to treat our issues is "just do it" and "go outside some more" and use some physical overstimulation or sport to deal with anxiety. don't have to be in a psychiatry to hear that from people... I mean it isn't false but there is a bit more to literal anxiety disorder and depression, burnout.... I learn more about my mental issues and how it all works together on youtube. but i can't get a sick notes from youtube.

[emeryleewho]

Hello! Are you working on any new stuff ? Goodreads says there are two books of wchih i already own and adore one ( I think I saw a post where you discussed issues with book deals for poc writers had the situation changed at all since then?)

- have you ever considered future continuation to ccl maybe with the boys being bit older and having different issues to work through ?

I just need more character writting by you in my life I love your approach to it I would love to see you work with some absolutelly morally bankrupt characters.

HELLO!!!

So, first and foremost, YES, I am ALWAYS working on new stuff! The situation in publishing has not improved much (because publishing is slow & messy & asjdfjjsasd), but that said, I am definitely working on new stuff, and I will have new stuff to share later this year! The first is my webcomic, A Flair of Fate, and the second is not announced yet but will be soon!

Second, I've gotten quite a few questions about continuing Theo and Gabi's story, so I feel kind of bad admitting that I don't currently have any plans for it! I have a project where they make an appearance (*oooh teasers oooh*), but nothing *about* them, you know? I just don't know what I could write about them going forward? Like, I imagine they're just working at the shop, making bad food puns at each other, and kissing on the roof at sunset sometimes? Like, I don't think I could muster up enough conflict for a real other book. That said, I won't say *never* because something could come to me, but for the moment, they are very much in the "and they lived happily ever after" stage!

And finally, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! My characters are 100% my biggest investment in my writing so it means the world to me that you love them! I'm also so happy that you said you'd want to see some morally bankrupt characters because I am definitely working on some... things... But I have a very many new stories in the works that really run the gambit of morally gray to just really fucking evil characters, and I'm really excited to be able to share them [eventually]! I'm definitely in my [fictional] villain era so I hope you're excited for just... absolute mess and chaos characters. They my dearest friends <3

[sidabro]

ok for the ask meme i have to ask again but this time....give the people gilbo beilbo. please :3

;) of course.. i wouldve probably sent an anon to myself of him if you didnt, all because i wouldve wanted you to like the post.. hand on heart. :3

favorite thing about them: a year ago, i wouldve answered ''absolutelly nothing''. In a way, that hasnt changed.. i think that -in canon-, hes a very easy character to be annoyed at, to not like. But im a diffrent soul, so i will say, as much as it probably grites you: how hes such a good brother.. he sincerelly cares for Ludwig, he cared for Karl/Klaus, he cares for Lily, Kungelmugel (whats his name..), others that hes not even related to too- under all of his annoying behavior, is geniuine love and support, and wish for those he loves to succeed. He annoys others because he wants them to think about him, notice him, hes excentric as fuck and arrogant but its his way of showing love and being close to others. ''Arent you so lucky i love you?" and the answer he wants is ''yes, i am''.. the way he loves is just so very <33333

least favorite thing about them: its hard not to say ''he did the northern crusades'' ... l have nothing concrete i dislike about him otherwise. ive come to reason it all off as ''he wouldnt be himself if he didnt do x or wasnt like y''. You changed me!

favorite line: ou i think it was in one of the character descriptions Himaruya did but it was like.. ''we have to break the wall in our hearts''.. it was unreasonably hillarious then and it is now. and if that ones not real, ''diplomatic poses 1-85'' is hysterical. Come on, Ludwig, you could learn so much if you were just willing..

brOTP: Ludwiiiiiiiggg :33 ^ best brothers forever.. They live together! He will die in his arms, there wont be a diffrent fate! Ludwig hopes to keep him alive with bratwurst and bad coffee of course .. it seems to be working so far

OTP: With Kornelius 😊😊 (for those unaware: Livonian brothers of the sword order's sexiest knight that ever lived) before 1410, and i dont really think about what happens next.. i could confidently say that i fight on your side of the trenches with frying pan trio though..

nOTP: with Tolvydas or Feliks.. Feliks could work for maybe twenty years at the start of the deal but the order betrayed polish trust in an irreparable manner, id say.. and Tolvydas well for obvious reasons.. Oh wait! Also with Matthew! I think that one is just dumb as shit, no hate intended for anyone but its so random and dumbass

random headcanon: I like to think he doesnt speak english, like, at all. He knows german and dialects, random archaic lithuanian swearwords, enough hungarian to call Erszeveta at three am, some faint french overleft from the 18th century, and an ammount of russian that hes actively tried to forget with copious ammounts of alcohol, all for it to resurface from something random (which he understands, but wont speak).. but english is not biteable to him. Its like those english people who call german the deviltongue and mock it ''it sounds like a paperbag being chewed and oh so many articles''... hes the same towards english. cant gag out a ''good evening'' to save his life, and he gets annoyed, confused and fussed up about the lack of articles, lack of conjugating in verbs and so on..

unpopular opinion: i dont think hes a slob and wont clean his share.... theres an entire canon game of him going to peoples homes and cleaning them because he wants attention. he threw out like seven of Roderich's trousers. Seriously! He folds his clothes neat just like Ludwig, i wouldnt be surprised if hes the one that tought him that.

song i associate with them: because im not normal about him, here is my chronological (sortof, very biased.. ) playlist.. if i had to pick just one song, Saltatio Moris - Prometheus is my german voice for him

favorite picture of them: literally what on earth was this? sometimes i sit in my armchair and remember this for no reason.. The hungarian-style crown and samsung flip-phone really do complete this. He's sitting like he has period pains. I love it.

[eirasummersart]

A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

Refering to this.

Thank you for the ask! Let's answer this one too C: Adding this after the full answer, I'm gonna add a read more because it turned out quite long hahaha

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate?

Ah, what medium of art don't I appreciate? I love art! I love reading, listening to music (and singing, but I'm not great at it hahah), sculpture, etc.

With reading, I mostly read fanfics lately, but I enjoy lots of typical books and authors too: Chaos Walking (Patrik Ness), the Lord of the Rings, Rick Riordan's books in general, MXTX's books, the Castle in the Sky. Those are the ones that come to mind first, my faves~ Of course, I include here manga and comics, there's sooo many I love as well. I do draw, but don't usually do comics (maybe someday!). Lately I've been loving Jujutsu Kaisen and Akagami no Shirayukihime, but I could recomend so many good ones.

With music I just always need some music if I'm not watching anything that has sound otherwise, I love so many kinds of styles, but I have a preference for melodic, mellow songs~ specially ones that I can sing along too. Lots of classical too (Chopin is my fave~). And piano is my fave instrument to listen to <3 I kinda talked about music already in the previous ask, so I won't go into more detail hahah

For sculpture I don't really have a particular artist I like, it's more a casual love. But all those "realistic" sculptures are mind blowing to me, how it seems completely real, specially fabric or expressions, but it's made of marble or another hard material.... man, so much talent, I admire them so much.

If we talk about drawing/painting I'm not proficient at but I still admire: watercolour is gorgeous and I am incapable of it. I love the art made with it! Oil and classic paintings as well, there's so many classic artists who have made amazing pieces. My fave is Monet! But I also greatly admire the ones from the victorian period in general. The way they render fabric and clothes is SO GOOD. I kinda emulate it unconsciously when I do my shadding ahah but I am sure it looks nothing like that xD Like, look at this art called "Flirtation" by Frédéric Soulacroix, that fabric 🙏🙏🙏 And the background is gorgeous too.

Also, I really enjoy watching movies/tv shows. Wether they're animation or not. Specially if they have good plot and/or if they have good photography/animation. There's so many beautiful works of arts in that medium as well. Ghibli movies are some of my faves (Howl's Moving Castle is my fave movie ever), Lord of the Rings movies are also masterpieces. I've also enjoyed lately the Poirot movies they've been making recently, they're really interesting and have great photography as well~

I have to say, I don't often watch theater/musicals because they're expensive and I'm broke af. But the times I went to see some, they're amazing as well 🙏 I'll include dance performances here too, because they're in a similar category to me.

I enjoy seeing architecture as well. My fave period for architecture is gothic! The way they did all those high arches and beautifully decorated walls. And the stained glasses! Sooo many great buildings!! Most of the ones I can see around where I live and was able to travel are churches or cathedrals. They are such beautiful buildings, even though I'm not religious in any sense at all, I always love visiting them and seeing them. But there's sooooo many amazing artstyles out there as well! Lique some Mosques are absolutelly stunning, with their intricate colorful patterns! There's so much good architecture to admire as well...

Also, I'll add that videogames are a form of art in my opinion as well, and I admire lots of creators. There's SO MUCH variety in this media, it's insane. Stuff like Return of Obra Dinn or Papers Please by Lucas Pope (who makes it all, including music, he's so talented), Baldur's Gate 3 (currently enjoying this one), Chants of Sennar, Binding of Isaac, Fire Emblem, Kingdom Hearts, etc. So many different styles but so fun and interesting. And also, so many good RPGs with amazing stories I don't think can be told in a better way using other media (Persona series, Tales of series, Dragon Age, the Nonary Games, Mother saga, Xenoblade Chronicles, etc.)

Sorry for the big rambling, I guess you didn't expect me to go into such a extended answer hahahah I really, really love all art of creation, it's such an amazing thing that someone visualizes something and can create it so everyone else can see.

I've said this over and over again, I wish I were filthy rich, so rich I could never ever use all my money, only so I could be an art mecenas (I think it's called patron in English, I like the word we use in Spanish tho XD) and give money to aaaall my favourite artists so they can just create without any worry at all, just focus on their art and not the money they need to make to survive. Just create their own stories, characters, art pieces, or create fanworks of any kind. I don't even want to request stuff I want to see, I just want to see what they want to create! What their mind can imagine and how they see the world!!!

Ah, if only...

Anyway, this has gone for long enough hahah thanks again for giving me the oppotunity to ramble~

And if you read till here, thanks as well for your time~ Feel free to send more questions for this ask~ (or anything else, really, if you want me to expand on any of these topics I mentioned here haha I'd be happy to~) P.D.: Just as I posted it, I also remembered tappestry/weaving/any kind of thread art. AND OF COURSE, fashion/outfit makers and designers!!! There's so much art in this world... so hard to remember it all, but it's all around us <3

[olympiansally]

hey, you saved me. when my heart was ripped out, stretched, torn, burnt, and scattered by the people who I thought loved me and everyone else, you were the one who put me back together. im not sure if ill ever find what im looking for, but what you said will always carry me thru these dead, sleepless nights. maybe that's all i need. you said that someday ill know that ill get it? you're right, and i know that everyone else will too. thank you Lu, you are worth everything.

Hey anon, quick question - and I mean this in the nicest way I possibly can - but wtf like <3 ?

I mean, I’m serious btw, I am like incredibly moved by this and I’m so happy to have had such a positive impact on you but I cannot for the life of me figure out what I did and it is driving me a little insane so I need you to pls pls pls clarify it for me I am like straight up begging? lmao

I mean, I am so very grateful for you saying all these incredible nice things and being so very sweet in your compliments and I am so honored in having helped you so much. It’s amazing that you feel this way and you’re very kind to tell me about it and I honestly really appreciate it!

But I am just? Sincerely baffled and so confused because how can I not know what I did to help you so much? I mean, some of what you said with like “someday I know that I’ll get it” seems to be referencing this quiz, but that just doesn’t feel like enough? If it is, I’m really glad that the quiz and my writing in it meant so much to you but I honestly feel like there must be something else I did because this is too much? I’m really glad to have helped you though - in whatever way I did - and I hope that you do find what you’re looking for and that you get to be very happy and loved.

I just kind of which I knew what I did to be “worth everything” but thank you so much for the sweet words, I will honestly hold them in my heart forever and I’m very very happy to have been able to help you and to be seen in such a beautiful light by you

So really, thank you, dear anon <3

[kckenobi]

Kasey, your Bloodlines playlist is absolutelly killing me with lineage feels!!! 😭😭😭 I mean "Piece by Piece", "Right Where You Left Me", "Marjorie", "Leader of the Band". "Not My Father's Son", "Remember Me" and sooo many other great songs had me almost in tears yesterday. Especially after reading chapter 3! Ugh, MY HEART!! Thank you for destroying me emotionally!

AHH THANK YOU OMG. I’m having so much fun with it because ugh YEAH LINEAGE FEELS—there’s just so many good songs about family and love and pain???

Like with Piece by Piece I was thinking about Obi-Wan feeling like Dooku left him (“all I remember is your back...leaving us in the past”) but also thinking about Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan and Anakin and all the ways they love and hurt and save and fail each other? “He restored my faith that a man could be kind and a father could stay” just has—SO MUCH TO UNPACK

Right Where You Left Me I was thinking about Obi-Wan suddenly feeling like the boy he was when Dooku left, or even when Qui-Gon died. Like “Friends break up, friends get married (UM HELLO) strangers get born, strangers get buried...But I'm right where you left me.” Like, all this has happened and stuff is a mess and totally different than it was when Obi-Wan was a kid, and yet here he is, hanging onto Dooku’s every word about Qui-Gon and seeking the validation that his Jedi dad loved him and was proud of him? Help I’m still at the restaurant—

Marjorie is just OOF—Obi-Wan talking about Qui-Gon, but also Dooku talking about Qui-Gon? Maybe Qui-Gon’s words to Obi-Wan being ones he first heard from Dooku to begin with... And then “I should’ve asked you questions, I should’ve asked you how to be....asked you to write it down for me...should’ve kept every grocery store receipt cause every scrap of you would be taken from me” okayokayokayIMFINE

And then oh dear god, Leader of the Band and Remember Me are both about Qui-Gon, and then EEK—Not My Father’s Son, that ones HEAVY. Cause it could be ANY of them talking about ANY of them. Like “when I was a kid everything I did was to be like him” and then “I’m not my fathers son, I am not the image of what he dreamed of” like OKAY. just thinking about how all of them, on some level, feel like they’ve disappointed their “fathers” in some way, and/or disappointed and failed their own sons.

Wow okay this lineage gives me so many feeling and I’m just so glad there’s so many songs that put it into words :’)))))) I cry

(In reference to this playlist for my fic bloodlines to make this rambling make sense lol)

[prophezeiung]

harry potter ? movies or books idc 👀

also sent by @smilesnstrings and @zukunftsvision  ›   send me a fandom and i’ll tell you... ( accepting )

the first character i ever fell in love with: i read these at so young i don’t think it was that for me exactly but my first hard fave i remember having is sirius black.... and we are still going strong all these years later...

a character that i used to love/like, but now do not: @mystizismus opened my eyes on why hagrid is a terrible person icb i was this blind

a ship that i used to love/like, but now do not: i am outing myself here but i once read a fanfiction in like... 2012... where the trio traveled back in time to stop tom riddle from becoming voldemort and he and hermione fell in love.. SO CURSED AND TERRIBLE icb i defended that ship for at least a year i am so embarrassed !!!!!!! also i wrote w*lfstar once i almost hate that more

my ultimate favorite character™: sirius black ofc !!! followed by cedric diggory, luna lovegood, and my own rendition of roger davies thank u very much

prettiest character: ginny...... cedric.... lily... sirius but he’s not my type... fleur delacour ofc

my most hated character: snerverus snorp... i disliked but respected him before the fandom absolutelly fucking ruined him for me and now i live and breathe anti snapeness i am sorry but also the fact he’s one of j.krs faves... NO

my OTP: jily and that’s it. harry and happiness.

my NOTP: snily.. dramione.. all the nasty nasty things we don’t talk about... w*lfstar bc of fanon,

favorite episode chapter/scene: idr specifics bc it’s been so long but categorically imma say all the quidditch scenes and all the triwizard tournament scenes and that scene in poa in the shrieking shack where sirius is dramatic and feral

saddest death: sirius </3 also fred

favorite season book: i can’t pick but i rly liked gof, hbp and poa

least favorite season book: hmmm prob ootp, it’s good but the vibe is depressing asf

character that everyone else in the fandom loves, but i hate: snurple and hagrid

my ‘you’re piece of trash, but you’re still a fave’ fave: don’t cancel me but... dumbledore...... also delphi (diggory) riddle thanks to @sinisteraugurey

my ‘beautiful cinnamon roll who deserves better than this’ fave: HARRY FREAKING POTTER ALL THE WAYYYY !!!!!! also ted tonks and dean thomas

my ‘this ship is wrong, nasty, and makes me want to cleanse my soul, but i still love it’ ship: drarry lmao jkjk........ unless

my ‘they’re kind of cute, and i lowkey ship them, but i’m not too invested’ ship: remadora, hinny, romione, dean x ginny, harry and cho, honestly all the m/f ships that felt like ‘here have romance bc there’s gotta be romance’ ... cute ig but i prefer other ones...

[whumpbby]

1/2 What about abo au where Jason's childhood was slightly better, like, his mom wasn't addicted and so he didn't lived on the streets and became a part of batfamily. Instead, he goes similar rout as Steph and becames a vigilante himself. He isn't very skilled, but he has street smarts and fairly talented, and one day he and Batman meet each other, maybe he even helped him somehow. Bruce already knew about new vigilante wandering in the most ratty parts of city, especially Cime Alley, but he

2/2 didn’t knew that Jay is so young and poorly equiped. His instincts are basically screaming to TAKE IN, PROTECT, but Jay dosn’t trust him much when he approaches him after. And he has Catherine, who may not be addicted and thus lasted longer than canon her, but still has a lot of health problem from Crime Alley lifestyle and drugs that she used to take before Jason appeared in her life. And now Bruce has to carefully court (mostly platonically, since Jason is young 16-17 old and looks even

3/2(welp, that was unexpected) and looks even smaller due to malnourishment. Tim who just befriended Spoiler is cartainly helpful, he already mostly knows how to act and what to do. He also falling for Jason fast and HARD, but Jason who started to come around pup foesn’t notice it at all. Because maybe in this verse Tim isn’t much smaller than him, he is still younger, he is a baby, damnit! And there is Nightwing, who gets to know Jason during one of his visits. And Jason immediately having

4/2 crush on him, because honestly, who wouldn’t have a crush on friendly Nightwing. Dick already nows about Jason’t courting situation and starts to visit more often, to help with it. It slooowly works and Jason becomes real friends with bats, gets their tech and med help (he admires Alfred deeply), there is just one last push for him to became pack’s omega, but nobody wants to scare him off, so things remain in this fragile peace. And then there is Damian, who was sent to Bruce earlier. He

absolutelly doesn’t want Jason as their pack, let alone pack omega, no-no, he won’t allow some street rat in his Father’s house. So he starts antagonize him really hard, but only makes situation worse for himself, because for bats Jay is very desired and basically already family, while Damian just doesn’t feels right, and now, when he tries to destroy their long work of getting Jay into the pack… Well, their certainly don’t like him much. Like, their instincts in mix, because Damian might smel

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Anon, this is as much as I have in my inbox, and I AM IN DESPAIR :O

I LOVED this idea formt he beginning and then LOVED IT EVEN MORE when the ABO came into play:O

Bby Jason, small and ruff, and one day deciding that he will be a vigilante too, to protect his mom and other pups like him. And he’s not stupid about it, he knows that he has no training and no funds for fancy toys and he’s small - but he has the street smarts and he can use them to his advantage. he knows the groundwork of Gotham, he knows where to hide, where to run, who will talk about things. And even if he can’t make things happen himself, he can get some information to certain people who will do it for him. 

To date, he’s responsible for 3 serious gang battles in Bowery, conflicts big enough for the Police and the Bats to get interested in them and investigate. Bad people went to jail and it was all Jason;s job, a few words whispered here and there. He’s proud of himself. He took some drug runners off the streets where hie mom lives - knows it’s not permanent, but it should last long enough for him to gather enough information to bust the replacements too. 

He’s more akin to Spoiler - uses what he has to do what he can. And it’s not like he’s running around the city at night in a stupid suit - if he’s more than attached to that one red hoodie and a bandana, so what? It’s not like it’s a brand name. 

And then, one night when he’s coming back home form the quick grocery run - he happens upon an alpha harassing a very young girl - and he can’t walk away, because she’s a redhead and she reminds him of his mom, and he can’t… the only thing that a quick look-around gives him is a bit of an old pipe sticking out of a nearby dumpster. He grabs it, pulls the hood over his head, pushes his bandana up his chin and goes in. 

And it doesn’t end in tragedy - the thug goes down, the girl pulls herself together at Jason’s growled command to run and, well. Huh. He saved someone. 

He saved someone. 

Jay runs home like he’s flying, all adrenaline and confused joy and when he finally closes the cheap door behind himself, he has to dash to the bathroom and throw up. It’s just too much. He saved someone. He smashed a pipe into someone’s head. The alpha was alive when Jay left, but… he’s not sure if he wants him to live through the night. He doesn’t know… He doesn’t know, he just knows that for the first time since he started, he actually personally helped someone. With his own hands. 

It’s a heady feeling. It’s a feeling of responsibility. He can do something now, he knows he can… and so he does. He picks up double-duty. He starts ‘patrolling’ - picks a few bad streets every night and sneaks around. Just in case. Streets he knows that the girls work, streets he knows bad people walk though. 

That’s how he learns about the local sex trafficking ring… and, well, this is big. This is too big for him to sort out alone, he needs help. He needs to bring in the big guns - even though he has no regard for the Bats, they almost never visit Bowery, they aren’t heroes to the most downtrodden… but this just may be big enough to get their attention and intervention. As much as Jason doesn’t want them there, he knows that the Bats will help the victims faster than the Police ever will, they will go after the perpetrators… the only problem is, well, it’s not like Batman has a phone number one can call to leave him an anonymous tip. 

…except he has, doesn’t he? 

That’s how one night Bruce lands on the roof of he Police station, summoned by the light, only to see a confused Jim just emerging on the roof and a handwritten message tied to a brick left by the light with a piece of string that is, well, concerning if the least one can say about it. 

Jim raises his eyebrows while B studies the note’s surprisingly neat cursive. Hell, the Commish is concerned - he had suspected this. In the recent year the Police received a suspicious number of suspiciously decent tips form someone who knew too much to not be close to the crimes themselves. They’ve booked a fair number of criminals thanks to the anonymous informant. Was this the escalation? 

Batman is concerned in a different way - he’s suspected something fishy in Bowery for a while now. The gang conflicts, they had the markings of strings pulled by someone, but there was no proof. B suspected his paranoia for seeing connections where there was an, but his instincts were telling him there was something to it, and now - now he can see that they were right. Someone was working the ground and slipping intel to the GCPD, someone was somehow causing mild chaos in the criminal world of the Narrows… and now they decided to do this. Involve Batman. Reach out to him? Because the note was serious and if it was true, it was something bigger than - what? That the informant felt they could deal with? 

So, Bruce investigates. He checks the police records and discovers a trail of beatings that had a different MO than the usual fare. These were no muggings, these were people ending up with a pipe over their heads in very specific circumstances. 

He studies the note - checks it for fingerprints, but finds none. The handwriting, however, is a clue - however even, it still looks hesitant, an unsure hand, someone not comfortable with writing or - young. The word choice - bold and rough, and exactly what a kid like Steph would consider ‘adult’ when she stared out as a Spoiler. 

Bruce wants to be wrong, but the clues align and his instincts are rarely wrong, and he knows that what he’s seeing is a new player emerging on the scene. Someone making a name for themselves. So far still aware that they’re not prepared enough to take on more than a thug in a dark alley, but how long will that last? They will escalate, because all clues point to the fact that they’re young.

 Damnit, there is another kid on the streets trying to get themselves killed. 

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[make-loki-happy-again]

Loki for the character ask thingy??

Ohhhh my baby! Of course!  Tw: mentions of sexual violence threat; a little bit of NSFW talk. 1. Favorite thing about them: I think it’s how complicated he is. Charming and charismatic but also deeply hurt and somehow tragic. How he is balancing between hero and villain. He is ellegant and delicate looking but also dangerous and strong. He uses magic, he’s smart and he can fight. I just love how complex he is. Also he is absolutelly beautiful! 2. Least favorite thing about them: That he used the threat of rape against women. Even if it was only suggestion, I am sure he knew how it can be interpreted. He told Thor he may “pay his woman a visit” which may of course only mean he would hurt her somehow, but I think Loki is too smart to not realise how sentences like that are used and how it may sound. And yet he still decided to say that. Another time is when he was threatening Natasha in Avengers. He was talking about Clint killing her but as a woman I couldn’t get rid of this werid that he may also suggest sexual violence. 3. Favorite line: I don’t think I can choose but I love his voice when he says “Oh dear... is she dead?” 4. brOTP: Loki and Thor! :) 5. OTP: FrostIron (Loki and Stark)! <3  6. nOTP: I don’t have one. I don’t really hate any ships. 7. Random headcanon: He loves spending time in nature and just feeling the magic.  8. Unpopular opinion: I don’t think it’s unpopular but I think a lot of people see him as a very dominant lover and I am one of those who see him as a sub.  9. Song i associate with them: “You should see me in a crown” - Billie Eilish 10. Favorite picture of them: I don’t think I have one favourite picture. But I had this one as my wallpaper for some time so I have a warm place in my heart for it.

[beautyiisterror]

10 questions tag 📚

Rules: answer 10 questions and ask 10 new ones. Thanks so much @therefugeofbooks for tagging me in this, i’m so excited!!!!!

1. What's your favorite cold drink?

if we are talking about alcoholic drinks, caipirinhas are the utimate cocktail, do not @ me!!!!! all flavors, are just *chef’s kiss*, but like in general i love orange juice and ice tea.

2. What's the first thing you notice about a person?

i honestly don’t know??? i mean, if they are goodlooking and not a bad person??? those are literally my two criteria. i like people who are smart and have pretty smiles and kind eyes, just not to sound shallow (which i kinda am lol)

3. Do you have any pets? What would you name if you had one (more)?

I DO!!!!!!! i have two pets acctually, a cat and a dog and they are EVERYTHING TO ME!!!! their names are jake (the dog) and belo (the cat). if i had one more, i would like to have a black cat named luna, because i’m a sailor moon trash.

4. What was your favorite TV show growing up?

i don’t really remember, but i used to love all shows with girls doing stuff? like winx club and totally spies. i used to love those!!! i still kinda do actually. 

5. What's your ideal vacation?

i love travelling with friends, and unfortunately, i don’t get to do as often. so i think my ideal vacation would be like travel to a really cool, unexpected place, with the biggest number of my friends that we can gather to such adventure. 

6. Is there any book that you want to read but by any reason you keep avoiding it?

you mean like, 70% of my bookshelf/kindle library????? hahahaha honestly, i buy books faster then i can read them so is always a HUGE tbr pile all around my room, i’m a chaotic reader, and i take no pride in that. but usually the books i keep avoinding are the classics, and the bigger ones. specially because, from a little time now i’m trying to add diversity to the cultural stuff that i consume, and it doesn’t help that most of the books i have here are from dead cishet white dudes. but i will get around reading them, even if is just to complain about it. 

7. What book do you hope will be turned into a movie or TV show one day?

one of the best books i’ve read this year was my sister, the serial killer by  oyinkan braithwaite, honestly, this book has everything that i love in fiction: complex women, sibilings relationships, FAMILY DINAMICS TO DIE FOR, pretty women comiting murder, humor... honestly five out of five stars, and i would love to see a movie adaptation of it. i would also love a kyoshi duology adaptation, even if i’ve only read the first book yet, i just love avatar universe so much, and kyoshi is my favorite avatar (ALSO A BISSEXUAL WOMAN OF COLOR IS JUST EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) it would be awesome to see a show about her. bonus points if it is animation, but honestly, there are so many great asian actresses around, i would love anyways.

8. Are there any books that are really popular but you dislike?

i can’t really remember many of those, even if i’m really picky with my readings, i’m quite easy to please. but a recent reading that was ABSOLUTELLY FRUSTRATING because i really wanted to like the book, was hanya yanagihara’s a little life. once again, the book covered subjects that i usually fell really drawn to, such as coming of age, found family, FRIEND GROUPS THAT DON’T FALL APART AFTER ADULTHOOD, non white writer/main characters, lgbtqia+ characters. honestly, a nox’s favorites textbook premise. AND YET, I HATED IT SO MUCH!!!! all the unecessary pain that some of the characters go to, that at one point through my reading i just rolled my eyes when something terrible happened/was revealed about the past of one of the main characters. and the identity of the non white characters wasn’t really explored as they should? it honestly felt like just more excuses to make those characters go through MORE PAIN. it was honestly hard to finish it up. and the more frustrating thing is that so many people seem to think this is a great representative book, just doesn’t sit well with me. i also think is impotant to say that there are SO MANY POSSIBLE TRIGGERS IN THIS BOOK, AND I DIDN’T SEE ANYONE TALKING ABOUT THIS BEFORE I READ IT!!! so i’ll leave a list of the triggers i was abble to notice throught out my reading, in case anyone is thinking about give it a go:

content warnings for a little life by hanya yanagihara: self harm, suicidal ideation, attempted suicide, disordered eating, physical abuse of a minor, domestic abuse, abuse of character with a disability, loss of a child, drug abuse/addiction, sexual assault/rape, pedophilia, ptsd, forced prostitution of a minor 

9. When did you last visit a library?

wow it has been so long... i think it was sometime in march of this year, that i went to my college library to pick up some class readings that i had to do, and then QUARENTINE HAPPENED, and i still am with the books i picked up lol. thank god that they lifted up the tax for late books or else i would have to sell my soul to pay it hahahaha i really miss going to college...

10. Could you recommend me a book that you think is underrated?

THIS IS SUCH A HARD QUESTION!!!!!!!!!! as i’ve said, i’m trying to do more diverse readings, and in this time i have come in contact with celeste ng’s work, and it’s honestly SUCH GREAT STORIES!!! i also love some contemporary brazilian authors like vitor martins and lucas rocha (both were translated to english recently, and i really recomend that if you are a english speaker you check their work), i also loved laura pohl’s debute novel, the last 8, she is brazillian as well, but her work is published in the us so no excuse not to check out. also, if like me you are a big fan of avatar universe you totally should check the kyoshi’s novels by f.c yee!!!! i also been meaning to pick up the trilogy of the poppy war written by r.f kuang and children of blood and bone by tomi adeyemi, simply because: WOMEN OF COLOR WRITTING FANTASY!!!!! but it’s not really a recomendation, as i have not read those books, but i am definetly doing it in a near future. 

(another author that i can’t go without mention is olivia pilar, she is a black bissexual woman who writes love stories between black women, and some of her short stories are available in english as well, and honestly WHOLESOME CONTENT!!!!!)

— Here are my ten questions, i don’t really know who to tag, but if you see that, and want to answer it i would love to see your answers, so feel free to keep on the tag! i had a lot of fun answering it, and i hope you guys do to!!!

what is your top 5 literature characters, and why?

are you a tea, coffee or hot chocolate kind of person?

what is your favorite/chosen aesthetic?

if you were the final girl in a horror movie, which song would you like to play in the soundtrack when you got away?

who are your favorite relationships in fiction (of any kind)? 

how do you feel about villans?

what is your favorite boyband?

do you prefer physical or digital books?

what is your favorite type of story?

what is your favorite season?

Looking forward to see your answers ✨

[unfortunatelyevent]

Last 10 Fics Tag Meme

Rules: Post the first lines of your last ten fics read or written and then tag others to do the same.

so i saw this and i really liked it so i’m doing it

1. Visceral Reactions by STARSdidathing (frostiron)

Tony wasn’t entirely sure how it happened.

One moment, he was chained to a wall in Loki’s latest warehouse lair and the mage was monologing. Tony was delivering his usual snarky one liners in response and Loki was trying not to look amused.

They were enemies just doing their thing and passing time until someone could save Tony (or he could save himself).

The point was, Loki was mid-monologue, throwing in some “mortals are beneath me, I hate you all” crap. Tony was rebutting that Loki was an Asgardian snob and, a total liar because he knew Loki liked a lot of Earth food, clothing and music.

Loki was towering over him and glowering.

And then... then they were kissing.

2. Friends Don’t Let Friends by theorytale (frostiron)

Steve was angling his shield to deflect a blast from Loki's staff, when out of nowhere the Hulk dropped down - splintering the concrete under their feet - and scooped Loki up in one massive green hand. Steve cringed reflexively even as he relaxed his stance. Loki was an evil bastard, sure, but watching Hulk use him like that whack-a-mole game was just… uncomfortable.

Only, Hulk didn't smash.

Loki struggled uselessly, yelling for the Hulk to put him down. It was kind of funny how fast the guy could go from menacing and legitimately frightening to… kind of pitiful. The cognitive dissonance gave Steve a headache.

Hulk lifted Loki up and peered at him intently, brow furrowed. "What puny god's intentions?"

3. Obliviousness Can Lead To True Love by pointnclickbait (science boyfriends)

Bruce swore softly shooting a glance at his watch as he hurried to the next presentation. This conference was turning out to be more hectic than he had expected. He had been hoping to catch a couple of presentations in particular but had already managed to miss some of them. The one he was hoping to attend the most was after the one he was currently running to. He really hoped he didn’t miss it. He paused at the entrance to the conference room to catch his breath before entering. He stepped in and scanned the room before hurrying to the one free space he could see. He settled down just as the speaker took to the floor.

He was so invested in what he was hearing that he forgot to keep an eye on the time and wasn’t aware of it until he was applauding the conclusion of the presentation. He looked at his watch absentmindedly before doing a double take when he saw the time. Swearing loudly this time he tried to squeeze his way through the crowd. By the time he finally escaped the room more precious time had elapsed. Inevitably by the time he reached his destination there was no possible way that he could have gotten inside. He let out a sigh of frustration and scrubbed his hand through his hair. It looked like he wasn’t getting into Tony Stark’s talk after all. He dropped his hand with another sigh. He’d been looking forward to the talk all weekend. It was the reason he had asked to have his presentation given so early, he had been hoping that he wouldn’t have to worry about the talks clashing. He swallowed his disappointment and headed for the dining hall hoping to eat his feelings.

4. The Language of Love by 1derspark (kaysanova)

To be in Jerusalem is to be hard of hearing.

Nicolo learns quickly there was no silence to be had in the city. Even on the way here, there is noise: the breaking of waves against a Genoese ship, the clamor of a thousand knights and horses, their armor clattering like heavy shells on the march to the holy city.

There is never silence. In Jerusalem it’s as if God were screaming, and with every hoarse screech the devil answered.

The battlefield is everywhere, and so is the blood. The sound of death, the sound of pain. Nicolo has dreamed in war cries for years, so this did not bother him. He dreamed in black curls, a dark helm pulled over an angry face, teeth bared and chattering in a language he did not understand but would soon come to hear very frequently.

He meets this man — the one that roars and tramples down swathes of armies beneath his feet — not too long after the fighting starts.

5. Here We Are, Born to be Kings by Purple_ducky00 (iron husbands)

“Your Highness. Lord Stark is here to see you.” Quentin Beck holds up his nose.

Prince James Rhodes rolls his eyes. It’s not like Beck should judge. He was only hired because his family was in serious debt.  Tony is working out of his.

Tony walks in a few minutes later, hair askew. “Wow, Rhodey, your servants hate me. I call it an achievement.”

“They just think it’s ok to judge since their scandals happened long ago enough for people to forget. You don’t deserve this.”

“I probably do.” Tony shrugs. “It doesn’t bother me. Actually, it gives me the chance to ditch my politeness because they already dislike me.”

6. Impossible Things by accioromulus (wolfstar)

Sirius arrives at the party two hours late and covered in snow. Facebook had suggested around thirty people were coming—a number which already threatened to overwhelm James and Lily’s tiny flat. When Sirius arrives at just past ten however, he immediately wishes he’d brought a sledge hammer, if only to make it past the front door. It’s clear that no less than fifty guests had burrowed their way inside. They stand in every corner, filling the narrow hallways and spilling out from every room, their faces vaguely familiar to him, their chattering bright and enthusiastic. Music drifts in from the sitting room, and it takes Sirius a moment to recognize it, bizarrely, as Christmas Carols, despite the New Years Eve decorations strung about the walls. He turns a corner, attempting suave and casual, but instead narrowly avoids a party-goer's over-enthusiastic elbow by crashing into Lily Evans.

7. greater love has no one than this by Jack_R (kaysanova) ((THIS IS A FAVE))

‘I am not going to Rum,’ Yusuf said. ‘They are filthy, depraved degenerates, and I will not bring dishonour on the house of my father by consorting with these Greeks dogs.’

‘I thought your mother was Greek,’ Niccolò said, mildly.

‘Then you should trust me when I say that their entire civilisation is simply beyond saving,’ Yusuf said.

8. fearfully and wonderfully made by bethecowboy (kaysanova)

Yusuf’s blood buzzes so hard through his veins that it takes all his effort to stay still. Every part of him longs for motion, for justice, for a swift end to the constant exhaustion.

He always calms his limbs, his mind, in time for Fajr: his forehead kisses the ground as the new sun soaks the sand in deep russet oranges. Light glints of the breastplates of dead Christians; it caresses the faces of his fallen brothers who had died defending the outer wall.

9. Genus and Species by 27dragons, tisfan (winteriron)

When Bucky opened his eyes, all he could see was green in all directions. At first he thought that was just the remainder of the Time Stone’s power. Thanos had done… something. No one quite knew what because the battle had been so confusing; the Power Stone blasting purple rays everywhere, the Space Stone moving people out of position, lord only knew what was happening with the Reality Stone. And then there had been a great, green wave of energy--

“Ug,” said someone nearby. It took Bucky a moment to clear his thoughts enough to identify it: Tony. “I feel like a Pride parade just swallowed me whole and then puked me out.” A pause. “Why are we in a jungle?”

10. Through The Years by hawkbucks (winteriron)

Tony is 8 and Natasha is 12 when Tony brings Natasha home for the first time.

“Mamma!” he brightly exclaims as soon as Maria opens the door, holding up one of his hands that is intertwined with one of Natasha’s. “This is Natasha! She helped me while I was walkin’ home from school today.” Before Maria can say anything, Tony is already rushing past her, dragging his newfound friend into the living room with him. He leads her to the rather lavish, cream-colored couch that’s bigger than necessary and tells her to sit down, letting go of her hand.

“Some’a the kids at school were followin’ me and sayin’ bad things to me,” Tony starts to explain as he takes off his patent leather shoes, remembering what his mother said about tracking dirt into the house. “But Natasha made ‘em go away. Then she said she’d keep walkin’ with me so that I’d get home all safe. She was really awesome!”

and that’s that, i have to say that i absolutelly love and rec all of these!

ok i’m tagging: @natyhunter @atypical-snowman @simplyclockwork @camp-half-dumbass and whoever wants!!! (also everyone i tagged please don’t feel obligated!!!)

[fairylynel]

[JACKPOT] by ELRIS - Mini Album Review

I’ve been meaning to listen to this album for a long time. I’ve been a die hard fan of ELRIS for a while, but the way HUNUS Entertainment treats the group definitely made me forget the girls even existed for a while. When I was first told that they were going to have a comeback with new members and a complete different concept, my interest peaked.

So here’s my review!

Intro (1:15) : The way this song completely hyped me up for the rest of the album is uncanny. This is an awesome beginning for a new era and concept for this group and I was immediatly excited for what was about to come. The special video they did for this definitely only made my expectations higher for what was about to come.

JACKPOT (3:26) : So, I’ve definitelly seen some people who were disappointed about this comeback. In my honest opinion, I think this a rather good song for a group who has beenm forgotten by their own company. It’s energetic and cute which is quite refreshing after those months without doing anything for the fans. The main critic I have for this is the fact this is obviously a song that follows the wave of ITZY’s type of melody, also known as noise. This is fairly obvious in the chorus and rap parts. A lot of groups have been doing this nowadays to gain the sort of success that ITZY has. While I am definitely not a fan of this wave of music that K-Pop has been going through, I think Elris did quite well with this track. It’s also quite good for BLRIS to see a new side of the girls, especially now that the group has new members and they need their time to shine as well (even though they sang the least  - Sohee and Bella absolutelly dominated that line distribution).

The MV is quite fun and colorful, as most of their work has been in the past, like Summer Dream and Pow Pow. It doesn’t exactly have a plot, but it’s still enjoyable for me.

The choreography, as seen in their “엘리스(ELRIS) - 'JACKPOT' dance practice video” has definitely some key moments, starting quite well, and only getting better. The chorus matches really well with the choreo and the girls look happy and comfortable performing.

The lyrics for this track are really, really weak. I absolutely despise people using the word “flex”, for the exception on the Internet. Everytime I hear someone say it, I cringe really badly. This is basically your “Quirky confident girls getting everyone around them to fall in love with them” and while this is a completely valid concept, I’m quite tired of it. Like I have said before, this is something that a lot of girl groups have been doing, including Momoland, Saturday, Weki Meki, Rocket Punch and so many more.

This is me (3:23) : ELRIS released a special video for this track where fans and others can see the choreography. I truly wish they had picked another song for this as this is one of the worst songs in the album, in my genuine opinion. I can see myself listening to this if I need to distract myself from something as the instrumental is so jarring and annoying to my ears that I can’t help but get immediatly irritated with this. The rap part is the only tolerable one and I do enjoy the breakdance segment. I do wish that their voices didn’t sound that high-pitched with that kind of instrumental behind it, it truly ruins it for me.

The choreo is fun and possibly what fooled me to first liking this song.

Like I do (3:27) : This is the song that should have been promoted like This is me was. This track is so smooth, clean and beautiful, I fell in love with it as soon as I heard it and it’s a shame it’s not being promoted more. It definitely as some oldies vibe and the chorus makes the song perfect. As usual, Sohee absolutely shined brightly, but so did EJ, with the few little seconds she had to sing. Those few lines sounded amazing and I had those on repeat for a while.

No big deal (3:27) : This is another of my favourites. ELRIS never misses with their B-sides, and this one is a gracious and elegant end for such a confusing mini album. This track has the exact same vibes that Focus had and I love that for it. It’s a calm, jazz like, soothing song and, from what I have seen and read, it’s being very well-received by fans and others. This deserved so much more attention and it’s a shame that HUNUS Entertainmnet decided to promote the other songs, instead of this one.

Rating: 6/10

[kulvefaggoth]

HI THIS IS YOUR LOCAL GARBAGE GAY BOY AND HE WANTS TO VENT ABOUT KINGDOM HEARTS

A couple of days ago i had an enligtening talk about my favorite hot garbage series with a mutual and i kind of ended up realizing i had a lot of pent up stuff about it that i never really let out

While i did vent a little already i feel like i need to put this really out of my head because it’s been consuming me in a way. And since this site is designed for just screaming random stuff into the void i wanna take advantage of that for once

Now first and foremost this is meant as a very personal thing. This is not an elaborate critique or a well thought work. This is a vent and i want this to be read as a vent by a gay with a lot of feelings about video games. ESPECIALLY about Kingdom Hearts and some stuff about KH3. 

Now let’s get to the meat of this course of mind screaming

I’ve been into Kingdom Hearts for a very long time. The first game i played was Kingdom Hearts II (the original KH was kinda hard to find here for some reason) circa 2005/2006. Bear in mind i had no idead what KH was. Game advertisement wasn’t (and still kind of isn’t) a big thing here in Brasil specially if you were a poor kid like me. Hell consoles were pretty inacessible to most of the people i was close with and me and other 2 kids must’ve had a PS2 in the same time frame. The main way you would know about new or cool games was through word of mouth or recognizing brands like Castlevania and Mega Man. 

But i was always kind of a freaky little avant-garde child which meant i ended up having a very different taste from most of the people around me. I had like 1 other friend who had actually played a Final Fantasy around let alone something like Shin Megami Tensei for an exemple which i also didn’t even knew was a thing. And i’ve always tried to find something new. Something that gave me some new experience. I’ve ended up playing a lot of more niche games like Drakengard and the Atelier Iris games (god i still love 2 and 3 a lot) and it was this mindset that eventually led me into the game that had a bunch of random anime kids and disney characters in it’s cover.

To say that i was confused by KH2 is an understatement. I knew absolutelly nothing about the previous games. Who is this “Sora”? Who was the red haired man? Why the fuck am i fighting with a giant key? Again what the hell is up with the Disney characters? Also bear in mind i must’ve been 9/10 yo brazillian kid whose entire english vocabulary came from video games and a couple of songs. Some stuff wasn’t even the plot getting dense it was just me not getting the actual language. 

And yet it’s also an understatement to say the i fell very deeply in love with that weird little game. The combat was great. The plot had SO MUCH DRAMA and i knew only about 1/3 of what was happening at any given time. Keyblades where fun and ridiculous. Demyx was a bitch.

As soon as i’ve finished KH2 for the first time i used what little internet i had back then to learn more. I found out there was a game for the easy emulated GBA. It kind of sucked but it was more Kingdom Hearts. Being unable to locate a copy of KH1 for a while i did the only thing i could actually do: i’ve played and replayed KH2 to exaustion. I did most of the stuff except a couple of the minigames and gummy routes because they where boring. The feeling of learning how to fight against Sephiroth, mastering his moves and eventually being able to beat him with a Kingdom Key in proud was a big moment for me. Beating all the Hades cups felt great.

About a year later i was able to get a copy of KH1 and by this time Re:CoM was out so i got that too. Played both of them throughly even thought KH1 clumsy mechanics kick my ass to this day probably.

Then another year passes i hear two new games where coming out... to consoles i didn’t own and honestly i couldn’t justify the cost of to my parents. I was pretty bummed but still i kept getting invested. Hell i was already balls deep into this series and only dreamed of how it would take off in the future. I even remember kind of writing a “script” for a sequel that i tried to make with two other randoms in RPG Maker. Never went anywhere and i know in my heart it sucked but still. That was how into this i was. The prerelease hype for Days was killing me even. Member XIV? How?

Also side note: to my edgy ass 12/13 year old self the idea of playing as Organizattion XIII was literally a dream. 

Days came out and if you where like me in the good old days of youtube videos that had like 5 minutes at max then you know that video game let’s play were almost impossible to do. I had to get a LOT of info from second hand about what actually happened in Days. Then i ended up getting a “decent” pc and was able to emulate it with absolute WORST frame rate. Still it worked and i was able to know what was happening.

But BBS was a completly separate beast. PSP emulation was basically non-existant when it came out so it actually took me a couple of years to actually play it. I had a friend that had a PSP (and that to this day i feel only got a PSP because i kept raving about it having both a KH game and a Final Fantasy fighting game on it because he was 100% that little shit but that is completly besides any point) and of course he couldn’t lend me because it was pretty expensive around here and that’s a very useless tangent.

Anyway time passes as it must and just as Sora fell deeper and deeper into the realms of sleep i too fell into as much Kingdom Hearts stuff as i could. The complex theories, the AMVs (GOD the AMVs), the plot summaries for games i didn’t play, all that good shit. So for years i’ve built within myself this... tension i shall call. The grand plot momentum that mr Nomura seemed to be building. The misterious indentities the hinted at hidden plots. The nature of stuff that seemed very vague and opaque. And as the new games where released it seemed more and more that they where building blocks into the grand prize: Kingdom Hearts 3.

Now here’s the thing. I don’t 100% agree of the narrative that we waited “13 years” for KH3. I think if you where actually a fan of the series back then then each game in it’s own way seemed to be it’s own event. With that i want to say the while we ALL waited for KH3 for me at least it seemed it needed time to build up. 

Now here’s the thing. Between BBS and DDD being both in consoles i didn’t own and me getting an Xbox 360 (PS3 prices where absolutelly INSANE here) i seemed to drift a bit away from KH. While before i waited for new game releases with baited breath i now found myself very blasé about DDD. I was getting used to it i guess. Also high school came and a lot of stuff started changing. KH felt like a bit too connected to my childhood too i guess. I was still a fan and still loved it to death but KH ended fading away a little for me even if it lighted a fire in me when people talked about it. This must’ve been around 2010.

I think it wasn’t until KH3 was formally announced that it all came back to me. The drive to find and consume and engage with as much of KH lore and theories as possible. Also i didn’t really get into “proper social networks” as a whole until 2012/2013. Weirdo i know. By then consuming these thing was a lot easier. Internet was a lot more acessible. I could just open up a tab of a KH wiki in my phone and read away from there.

And there was this rush y’know. This thing of finally seeing a finish line. Not that actually expected or even wish for KH to end but it was KH3! The big one! And remember the tension i’ve mentioned earlier? It was always kind of present and it ended up skyrocketing during this period. I was already knowledgeable about KH but during this time i was almost a goddamn lore master. I knew the whole gig inside and out. Even the weird shit from DDD. The stuff they added to the collections just kept it going too. As did X/UX (which in my grand KH tradition i too didn’t play but i think most people feel me here).

All a big ball of complex yarn and plot and madness that would SURELLY burst with KH3. After all this time all this tension it would come. Release. Answers.

But to me that was the aspect in which KH3 failed.

Now don’t get me wrong i actually like KH3. Quite a lot. And Nomura did apparently tied up a lot of arcs. The lost are found and saved. Piss Grandpa Xehanort is dead.

But it didn’t release my tension. It didn’t burst it into the magic fireworks and ecstasy. The tension is still here. Hell the tension seems even stronger now.

And a lot of it has to with how KH3 seems to still be hiding so many fucking cards from us. Literally in one case. It was a vague feeling of unceartainty before but when i came through the Sleeping Worlds theory it just RUSHED onto me. The story doesn’t feel complete.

Now this is not the same as FFXV. I have a couple of... harsh opinions about it and it’s plot and story are front and center on the list. That story was absolutelly unfinished but not in the same way. To me it feels like Nomura just HID parts of the story. We are not getting the full picture. A lot of shit is really really REALLY weird. I’m still not over Riku’s sudden haircut.

But here’s the real gag to me. Nier: Automata gave me the same feeling the first time i played it. But then i came upon route B. And then Route C. and that’s when the TRUE game showed itself. Nier kept a lot hidden but it was hidden within itself. If you just keep playing you actually can access those hidden parts and eventually you reach your true goal. The actual ending. An ending so final that you might even like giving up your save data to help somebody else achieve it too is the only true option.

Yet KH3 has no such crowning grace. At least not for now. And that’s half the reason i made this. 

KH3 feels incomplete but in a way i could really love if the game eventually completed itself. Reading the Sleeping Worlds theory i was like “omg this makes VERY much sense. but if it makes so much sense why isn’t it in the game?”. And then it clicked. DLC. It’s 100% possible the actual plot may come as DLC. 

But an even darker thought crossed my mind and it’s filing me with actual rage: This is meant to be another game. This is the Powers That Be (Nomura, Disney, Square-Enix, take your pick...) unaturally extending this “Saga” beyond it’s ending point. If it does turn out that KH3 had some dream hijinks going on then it was 100% possible and BETTER to include that in the actual game. But since KH is known for having so many side games what is the harm in doing another right?

Well you harm the integrity of your plot. I know we say the plot is hot garbage but come the fuck on that is what is holding us here. Or at least it’s what is holding me for so long. Setting up another saga is absolutelly fine but breaking away for you ending like this is even worse. How? Why? The why is probably money but still.

Or maybe KH3 is just meant as that. There is no twist not weirdness. Maybe all that is by design y’know. 

This is long enough already. I’m tired. I started writing this at 2:30 am. It’s about 4am now. I slept very little last night.

This is a big colletion of nothing i guess. Not even sure it helped me. Oh well.

[yuriblackwoodtealeafgamgee]

I was tagged by @basked-sunlight  <3 If someone wanna do it than do it! <3<br>

last

- drink: milk

- call: my mum

- text: mine in a group chat, about an animation series

- song u listened to: HeavyDirtySoul by twenty one pilots

- time u cried: Don’t remember very well, i tend to keep everything inside, but probably at night

have u ever

- dated someone twice: yes

- kissed someone & regretted it: no

- been cheated on: i don’t know, but i’m like 90% sure it happened

- lost someone special: to many times

- been depressed: like… everyday…

- gotten drunk & thrown up: nope

favorite colors

1. Black

2. Red

3. Blue, Purple, Emerald Green

in the last year have u

- made any new friends: yes <3<br>

- fallen out of love: i don’t think so

- laughed so hard that u cried: yes ahahaha

- found out someone was talking abt u: no, but i will always think it, it’s like one of my biggest problems

- found out who ur friends were: if you mean who my true friends are, then yes

- kissed someone on ur fb friends list: on the cheek

general

- how many ppl from ur fb friends do u know irl: i think… 8? (i’m considering my fake profile)

- do u have any pets: 2 cats <3<br>

- do u want to change ur name: no

- what did u do for ur birthday last year: resturant with 4 friends and pub

- what were u doing last night at midnight: watching La Casa de Papel

- what time did u wake up today: 10 am circa

- what is something u can’t wait for: graduate, see my friends again

- have u ever talked to a person named tom: no

- something that gets on ur nerves: close minded people, when someone talk me over, not being listened/considered, when people doesn’t recognize what I’m capable of and/or have a wrong idea about me

- most visited website: I use apps for sns, so… Netfix and other streaming web sites; GMail for university

- hair color: brown

- short hair or long hair: long

- do u have a crush on someone: to many crushes for too many people

- what do u like abt urself: my butt probably? aaand… my determination and imagination i guess…

- want any piercings: no, I mean i want others on my ears but just there

- blood type: A+

- nicknames: Yuri (fake FB) and… i don’t know sometimes people call me in other ways but rarely

- relationship status: got a boyfriend

- zodiac sign: capricorn

- pronouns: she/her

- fave tv shows: Bitch, there are so many! Ok, here’s the most loved by me: Versailles, Sense8, New Girl, Doctor Who, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, La Casa de Papel, Scrubs, Glee.

- tattoos: no and i’m currently not planning on having any

- right handed or left handed: right handed

- ever had surgery: no

- sport: dance since i was 3, but I’ve been very unlucky because of lot of things

- vacation: out of my country to discover the world, but also chilling with my friends somewhere calm that we know

- trainers: I actually have one pair and rarely wear them, i like other types of shoes better

more general:

- eating: I love to eat, but i guess i have a fucking food disorder cause lot of times, mostly in summer but also during stressing periods, my body just don’t wanna have anything to do with food

- drinking: my favourites are tea, Dr. Pepper and Caramel Macchiato. I have to admit that i love alcohol, but i don’t go out a lot, also I don’t have enough money -.-”

- i’m about to watch: nothing right now, but late in the afternoon I’ll watch Attack on Titans

- waiting for: be able to see my friends more, be able to do the things I love

- want: to succeed in things that are important in my life, my goals, find a way to meet BTS (I know, it’s fucking impossible) + graduate and all the things above. For material things… a lot ahahahah

- get married: yes, when I’ll be ready and able to.

- career: well… that’s a rough point. I have no idea of what i want to do in the future or even what i could do. It’s difficult in my country and that doesn’t help. I just hope to find something that i like that can give me the possibility to go on with my life.

which is better:

- hugs or kisses: I think hugs, kisses are good too, but just with a few people.

- lips or eyes: I am more into eyes <3<br>

- shorter or taller: I don’t mind

- older or younger: Not a problem either. If it’s about someone i would date, I don’t care, as long as they have a grown up mind.

- nice arms or stomach: Well… I have a thing for male shoulders, so I think arms, but a nice stomach is appreciated

- hookup or relationship: I’m not able to have something with someone if it doesn’t envolves a relationship. It can be an important one or a simple one (starting simple and see how things go), but definitelly not a hookup

- troublemaker or hesitant: absolutelly hesitant

have you ever:

- kissed a stranger: NO

- drank hard liquor: Of course

- lost glasses: yes, but found them immediately

- turned someone down: probably anyone who knows me, I’m SO fucking good at it

- sex on first date: GEEZ NO

- broken someone’s heart: I don’t know, I hope not, but I’m afraid I did

- had your heart broken: God, yes

- been arrested: no

-  cried when someone died: yes

- fallen for a friend: yes, also because most of the times I need to become friend with someone before falling for them

do you believe in:

- yourself: not really, but I never lose my determination

- miracles: no

- love at first sight: you can like someone even in a romantic way, the first time you see them, but love is something that born from a relationship and grows with time

- santa claus: nope

- kiss on first date: gnnnn… it’s very difficult for me, but it could happen i guess?

- angels: not really

other:

- best friend’s name: they’re more than one

- eye colour: brown

- fave movie: The Lord of the Rings saga <3 for me it’s like so important, it’s not just a film<br>

- fave actor: Geez, i don’t know, i have a lot. Alexander Vlahos, Ryan Reynols and David Tennant for sure. But also, almost everyone in The Lord of the Rings cast and probably someone I don’t remeber at the moment.

[crocusflowersandchocolates]

18: What is your Song of the week? 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink? 20: Do you still watch cartoons? 21: Whats your least favorite movie? 22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

18. What is your Song of the week?

Birdeatsbaby- What the water gave me. 

19. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

 Absolutelly!

20. Do you still watch cartoons?

 I watch anime  if that counts as cartoon. I must however confess I was more into it in the past than I am now.

21.  Whats your least favorite movie?

 Cat in the hat. Absolutelly hateful!

22. Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

 I’m that kinda person actually XD Probably somewhere near home where I could go often to check it. I actually have something like that but my treasures are mostly made of paper (photos, letters etc XD This is so cheesy)

 Thanks so much